GOING BACK IN TIME

If only I could go back in time:
I would memorize all the stories I was told, stories that would build the nation if shared.
Stories that my grandparents shared with me as a way of equipping me for the future
Filled with wisdom and life changing experiences.Only  if I could go back in time, I'd share
If I could go back in time, I would tell the people I loved how much they meant to me, maybe only maybe things could have been different now.

I'd apologize to my grandfather for that morning, when he told me not to allow his workmates home because he wasn't feeling too well and needed to rest. When his workmates came I allowed them in and woke my grandfather up, his colleagues brought news that since he was around, he had to go on a long mandate journey for work right away. He looked at me, and it was in that moment I realized was wrong to allow his colleagues in. He then whispered to me and said.."actually I am not feeling well, in fact I can't  even see properly,..this diabetes is getting the best of me." My mouth became dry, I shivered trying to figure out what I just did.The fact that he was found home, he had no choice but to go for work or face consequences.
I stretched my hand to stop him from going but it was too late. I saw my grandfather walk in the shadows of his colleagues to avoid falling because he was partially blind. I stood there and watched in shock. Before I knew it, my grandfather was down because he missed his step due to blindness.My. legs became numb and my breathe froze. I ran to him and he whispered to me "I need to do this, we need the money for your school" Only if I can go back in time, to make things right.I would.

If I could go back in time, I would have listened more. For the friends I lost in this life journey, am saddened, I should have listened more. I still remember the talks we would have, where we would talk about everything and anything bothering us. If only I listened, we would still be in inner circles of friendship. If only I could go back in time. I would listen more.

If I could go back in time, I'd have tried harder to make everything easier for my young sister. I know she has had the toughest childhood. Socially, it was tough, school wise it wasn't easy. Growing up in a slum has not been easy. Growing up we never had a dime, could not work and couldn't consider crime.I wish I told you more often that it will be fine, its just a matter of time. Wish I gave you a ladder to climb. If only I could go back in time, I would have made it a lot easier for you lil sis.

If I could go back in time, I 'd tell myself that arguing wasn't worth it. The times I spent arguing could have been used to enrich myself. If only I could go back in time I'd tell the younger me not to make my future mistakes.

Nevertheless,thank you for everything, because its all the poor choices, broken roads, the mistakes, the time lost,the words unsaid, the pending apologies, the rude actions, the lost opportunities that I live my life to make a difference.